I haven’t been a great friend!
Woof, that’s hard to write, but hear me out!
The last 1.5 years have been a whirlwind of growth and self-development as I stumbled my way into my thirties. I changed companies, traveled to Jamaica, made friends with my anxiety, healed from hip reconstruction….and then healed my heart after the hip reconstruction failed.
I won’t lie. It. Was. Rough.
I spent a lot of time feeling sorry for myself and letting myself be overwhelmed by chronic pain. I wondered “Why me” and, “What did I do to make this happen?”.
Logically, I knew that it wasn’t my fault, but as most of us know, logic and emotions don’t always go hand in hand. I stopped doing a lot of things I enjoyed like learning new things and writing for you, my dear reader.
Each day I worked my day job, worked out at the gym, and came home to read or watch TV. I was so anxious all the time from the chronic pain and fear of the future, that by the end of the day I was exhausted.
But if anyone were to ask me what my greatest strength is, I’d probably say resilience.
Fall seven times, get up eight. -Japanese Proverb
I’ve been knocked down more than a few times in my life, but every time there’s a little voice in my mind that whispers “get back up”. If I had a spirit animal it just might be a phoenix because I will rise from the ashes, baby!
Plus, feeling sorry for myself was so booooring.
I dug into researching more about my hip issues, read self-development books, saw a therapist, meditated regularly, had a PRP injection, did PT and more PT, had pain injections, and saw doctors. So many doctors.
Am I the picture of serenity and health right now? Far from it. But I am loads better and I have my hip replacement coming up in June. I’m going to be one hip chick (my bf told me that was a terrible dad joke but this is my blog and I do what I want!).
Slowly, but surely, my world began to appear in color again as the curtains of depression lifted.
Over the last 1.5 years, readers kept asking me if I was going to start writing again and I was truthful when I said, “Definitely. It’s just really busy at work right now” or “my hip pain has just been really bad lately”.
Soon a few weeks turned into a few months and then more than a year.
Hindsight is 20/20…yadda, yadda, yadda, but I can see now that by stopping doing the things I cared about I was just giving in and I won’t let that happen again.
I’ve always been a firm believer in not only learning from your own mistakes but also in learning from other people’s mistakes! The beauty here for you, my friend, is that you can learn from my mistakes. With 30+ years of experience at being a human, I plan to share with you all I’ve learned through my ups and downs and in-betweens.
Want to learn how to be friends with your anxiety?
Not sure what the next right thing to do is?
Not sure where you want to go in your career?
Let’s figure it out together. I’ve got your back! Together we can help you discover the life you want and how to start getting there!
I’m just a girl standing in front of her readers asking if they can give her a second chance.
Hopefully, there are some Notting Hill fans out there!
Anywhoodles, I’ve been working on a ton of fresh content and a new journaling email series with prompts that really helped me gain clarity about who I am and what I want to do with my life. I think they’ll do the same for you and I hope you’ll join me!
Is there something that’s been weighing on your mind lately? Do you have something specific you want me to write about?
I’d love to hear from you below!