When New Year’s comes along everyone thinks about the new year unfolding before them and all they would like to accomplish and change along the way. Each year I wholeheartedly jump on the #newyearnewme bandwagon as if my life is fresh snow waiting for me to make the first footprints. The past couple years have definitely been ones I have wanted to leave in my rear view mirror and each new year presented itself as an opportunity to forget all my woes and embrace a better lifestyle. You may be asking yourself why I’m talking about New Years in May, but bear with me and I promise to get to my point!
Unfortunately, just because it’s a new year doesn’t mean it’s a new me. Despite it being January 1st my gastrointestinal and hormonal health issues would follow me into the new year like white on rice. For the past 2+ years I’ve been suffering from a mystery illness that has presented itself in a whole host of symptoms, but that’s a post for another day. I still have a long journey ahead of me, but now I’m on the tail end of this mystery illness that I’m now able to treat and I can feel myself getting healthier every day.
There were a lot of moments of anger and there still are. It’s so easy to ask yourself “why me? What did I do to deserve this”? The struggle is real as you try to find someone to blame for why you were the one struck down. People want answers to explain how something so devastating could enter their lives and I wasn’t any different. However, now as I’ve started getting better, I’m surprisingly learning that it just doesn’t matter. Sure, maybe I had a blocked chakra, ate the wrong foods, had one too many protein shakes or angered the gods in a past life. Whatever caused this downward health spiral to begin doesn’t matter. Having someone or something to blame doesn’t do me any good. What helps me is making peace with myself and making the changes necessary to make my body a happy camper.
While New Years can be a magical time it isn’t the only time you can start anew. There’s nothing stopping you from deciding that tomorrow you’re going to let go of all the pain in your past that’s holding you back or starting a healthier eating plan. While you may still be in the same book tomorrow can always begin a new chapter.
Turn that page!